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These all my photography and photography shoot photos. Most are my Modeling Updates as well:)


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I'm Patricia.

--SM Name: Jealous Trish.

High School Graduate, '12
College Student
Tragic Teen
Stitch Obsessed!:)
Loves to Sing (but sucks at it)
Fun in the Clouds
Loves to Do Self-Portrait Photography
Make-Up Artist
I like Blood
Loves Dark Makeup
Vampire Obsessed
Natural Blonde
I'm an Odd-Ball
Hopeless Romantic
Therapist for Friends
Loves Purple
Brutally Honest
Blue Eyes that change to Gray
Writer of Short Stories and Poems

Current Residence: Kentucky
Favorite genre of music: Rock
Favorite style of art: Photography
MP3 player of choice: ipod
Favorite cartoon character: Stitch!
Personal Quote: No freakin' way!

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So I'm losing even more weight
Bought me a new shirt at Walmart last night...The cutest damn shirt. and It is a smaller size than I already wear. Well, it's strapless and it keeps falling down. Shit! This sucks. lol

I'm not ashamed to say this. I've had a baby. lol.
Before I got pregnant I weighed 195. When I went into the doctor office to get weighed before I had my daughter, I weighted 212lbs. Well. It's 10 weeks since I've had my daughter and I weight 178lbs now. :) And still losing it. 
  • Mood: Longing
  • Listening to: I'm With You - Avril Lavigne


You walked all over me like I was a play thing
A rag doll
A bone you just throw to a dog
I wasn't just a thing
I was never a thing
I never wanted things to end the way they did
I never wanted to fall out of love
But you pushed me
You felt me up the idea of love
You lost me
For quite some time
You lost me
I don't even feel as if our love were real
You created a wall as I did for you
You broke it once
I wasn't about to sit back and watch
As you destroyed it twice
I loved you
I gave you everything
I guess you just felt like you were needed
To be in control
But the truth was
I only need your love
For to love you as I were beneath you
You couldn't love
You couldn't give me a chance
I was never enough
Not for you
Not for this
Not for life
With every bit of my being you destroyed me. You left me there to die and you just didn't care. I believed you loved me and I felt as though we were meant to be. It was only you I trusted and you threw every ounce of love I'd given you away. I wanted to love you. I wanted to be yours. I wanted you, to love me.

That's what I believed a year ago. Under the pressure of the asylum, I wanted to get out. They thought I was crazy. I'm not crazy, I was just misunderstood. I wanted out and I'd do anything to get out. With each breathe I took, I wanted to believe that the better I got, the closer I became to getting out. But getting out wasn't my only option or goal. I wanted Roger dead. And that's what I was going to get. You don't side track me and expect to live, but you can win loosely. He announced to the government that I was threat to him, but he had another thing coming.

I'm Jaelynn, a seventeen year old female who fell in love with a federal agent. I didn't want to fall in love with him. It was only a project that I had been assigned too. I was hired to figure out the truth of my fathers death. I had been hired to destroy Roger. Sadly, I lost a battle with more than one witness. Now I'm out and I will get to the bottom of this. So I've reassigned to the same project, only now I'm under a new identity.
Follow Josie as she figures out the truth about her fathers death. Will she be able to stay out of the Asylum? Will she be able to finish the project before her identity is given away, and will she be able to kill this man without falling in love, again?
Did you know
That since I've known
I cannot look back at old photos
I cannot smile
I cannot grin
Only a heavy heart

Did you know
I cry all the time?
I try to look past it all
It was only a mistake
It happened once
Only once you said

Did you know?
As hard as I try
As hard as I can
I cannot move on

The photos haunt me
You werent happy
You weren't even in love
You lost me

Does it haunt you everyday
Like it haunts me?
Of course not
You're the one who cheated
And destroyed all most everything
Not me.

But somehow it's all my fault.
It always will be.
I'm lost without words with the constant reminder
Things will never change
I've tried to begin changing myself
But the slightest break and I'm at back at square one
Believe in me
Is all I ask
But sadly the sudden truth won't compare
You'll never believe in me
Nor can you trust me
You've lost all sense of trust in me
And I've done the same

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rainbowphotos Featured By Owner Apr 6, 2014
Happy Birthday :heart::cake::heart:
babydarlin94 Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2014  Student General Artist
Thank you darlin!
itsmyccrets Featured By Owner Apr 6, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaappy Birthday Patricia!!!
babydarlin94 Featured By Owner Apr 6, 2014  Student General Artist
Thank you so much!! :)
puppystar59 Featured By Owner Apr 5, 2014  Professional Traditional Artist
babydarlin94 Featured By Owner Apr 5, 2014  Student General Artist
hello :)
ReptarOnIce Featured By Owner Nov 12, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks for the fave! :)
guilmonking Featured By Owner Oct 20, 2013
Thanks for the :+fav:
babydarlin94 Featured By Owner Oct 24, 2013  Student General Artist
You're welcome hun!
Cacophilia Featured By Owner Oct 18, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you for the fave!♥
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